Onward

I think we found the rings that describe us both, separately and together. I said I'd never do this again, but I can also admit when I was mistaken.

Emotional

You know, I understand that it's frustrating. The job market is bleak, people seem unkind and desperate, and so much is uncertain. Maybe the angry responses I've seen lately stem from that frustration or guilt from unwise decisions. I'll give you this tidbit, though. It only alienates people who are trying to help. I may be a goddess who kicks ass now, but before I realized that, I was a raging bitch who burned every bridge from both sides, laughing the entire time. So breathe, count to five, and consider your words before you vent in public. You don't really want to be that kid in the cereal aisle throwing a tantrum, do you?

Canine

A gentle reminder to myself about the best qualities of our canine friends. Happy to see you when you visit or come home, take nothing personally, and quietly wait in comfortable silence when needed.

Mobility

While I wouldn't want it to be a primary home base, I'd like to have a trailer to haul us and the dogs around in. Maybe a popup camper. Something that can make an overnight visit to the Everglades or a week's trip up the coast. I'd drive west to see a desert sunrise again and a bonfire on a Pacific beach. It's nice having roots, but I like mobility almost as much.

Elements

I was the leader of the elemental army. I fought until the gods of the water arrived to wash away the enemy with broad swaths of current. The earth erupted in rock formations to shake off advancing forces like fleas. But still I forgot my pack on the ferris wheel and no one believed who I was. I was tempted to leave completely and start over somewhere else. Is it their fault they're mired in bureaucracy? Why should I try so hard to help them if they can't see through the webbing they're bound by? There's so much potential but they've forgotten who they really are.

Chaos

Before a great vision can become reality there may be difficulty. Before a person begins a great endeavor, they may encounter chaos. As a new plant breaks the ground with great difficulty, foreshadowing the huge tree, so must we sometimes push against difficulty in bringing forth our dreams. Out of chaos, brilliant stars are born.

prophecy

I've never had a prophetic dream, which is a relief, given the magnitude of violence in my head while I'm asleep. Sometimes I'm the killer, sometimes an observer. I'm rarely the one being attacked. I used to keep dream journals trying to find a pattern and how it related to what was happening in my life at the time. I gave up, never finding a correlation. When things are great, I have nightmares. When they're not, I have nightmares. I haven't had the adrenaline-firing night terrors in a while, though. I don't miss those. It's hard to tell what's real and what's a dream at that point. I'll always have at least one dog to raise the alarm in case what I think is a dream is real. If they're not concerned, then it's all in my head.